KAU PENCURI CAHAYA BULAN

P/S: Credits to #seratusmulut. Puisi yang aku buat untuk Seratus Mulut.

KAU PENCURI CAHAYA BULAN

Dulu aku lihat bulan itu terang,

Namun semakin kau menjauh,

Semakin malap cahayanya--

Mungkin kau pergi membawa cahaya itu bersama,

Kerana sewaktu kau melangkah pergi,

Aku hilang cahaya di kala malamku.

Namun,

Masih aku perhati bulan itu,

Tanpa aku mengerlipkan mataku,

Walau cahayanya semakin pudar.

Kerana bulan itu satu kepastian,

Kepastian buat aku untuk tahu kau masih lagi tersenyum melihat bulan yang sama,

Mungkin bukan aku yang berada di dalam ingatan kau saat itu,

Aku tak kisah---

Wahai sang bulan,

Pergilah kau, pergi bersama dia,

Berikan dia cahaya yang paling terang,

Cahaya yang dapat sentiasa menyinari senyuman manis itu,

Agar setiap kali aku lihat bulan,

Aku dapat lihat wajah dan senyum itu walau dia jauh dan bukan milik aku lagi.

Amatur,

Mawar

WORLD TYPO RECORD #RandomPost

My ex roommate just made the most great typo art on Twitter and I should make a praise or something for her. Hahaha, she is now in the World Typo Record on my blog. Hahaha, I've told ya I'm going to do it. 

P/S: Just to make jokes,

The Art of Making Typo by Ain Atiqah.

Hahahaha sorry girl, I just made you famous :P 

Written by, 

Nurul Hidayah.

HOROSCOPE SAYINGS #1

Found this on Tumblr. Well, in Islam, we are not suppose to believe about the horoscope thingy. But, if only it tells about what our future will be. If the horoscope tells us about our personalities or something like that, it is okay, to actually believe it. I'm not that kind of girl who actually believe in this thing, but this post on Tumblr, did make me realize something. My horoscope is Scorpio and him is Taurus. Now, let's see what the horoscope tells about me and him. I mean, our personalities. 

SCORPIO - The Addict (October 23 to November 21) 

*Me is on November 20*

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good as spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

TAURUS - The Tramp (April 20 - May 20) 

*Him is on May 17*

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self-centered and if they want something, they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth.

And you know what I've found? I've found this is great. Actually, it's kind of true. Some of it is true. Really true. Even both of us have this same personality in horoscope, which is loves being in long relationships. Yes, we like that. And hoping that we can keep this relationship forever. Sometimes, horoscope can be interesting. Most of the saying is actually true, whether it's about me or him. And I actually laugh when I came across to read this. Haha. He is one of a kind that will fight and try anything to get what they want. He is that one of kind that just make me love him more. I'm thankful to have him even after all that we've been through. With all those tears, screaming and laughing. We still love each other. 

The Addict, 

Nurul Hidayah.

GOOD AT NOTHING

#WORDLESSPOST

Screw Myself. I'm good at nothing.

SCREW MYSELF.

Life is just unfair. It is. When I'm trying to be nice, it still want to hurt me. When I'm staying with the bad side of mine, it still want to hurt me tho. What should I do now? Cause I feel like I'm damn stupid. I'm just stupid when I'm trying to be nice. People just step on my head like I mean nothing to the world. I'm just stupid. Screw me. 

A VOICE FROM HEART

Take me to this place for peace, please. 

Is it wrong for me to give up? Is it wrong for me to be happy? Is it even wrong for me to be alone? Is it wrong for me to love someone? Is it wrong for me to be loved by someone? Is it wrong for me to actually do something good for once in my life? Is it wrong for me to feel insecure? Is it wrong for me to get mad? Is it wrong for me to sulk? Is it wrong for me to act a bit childish? Is it wrong for me to get jealous? Is it wrong for me to make someone trust me? Is it wrong for me to trust people? Is it wrong for me to make someone happy? Is it wrong for me to feel stupid? Is it wrong for me to tell people about my feelings? Is it wrong for me to over-thinking? Is it wrong for me to have so many different feelings? Is it wrong for me to actually live my life?

Why is everything gets so hard for me? Why now? Why don't warned me earlier so that I could get prepared for such incidents? Why make the future a secret for me? Why do I have to ask these kind of questions? Why am I feeling miserable? 

Most important question is that why is the world, time and people are being too mean to me? What have I done wrong?

*a voice from the heart* 

"This is the punishment for you to put on too much hopes on something that can't guarantee your happiness. You've done too many wrongs to yourself. Now, face it." 

*cry*

The End.

2:32 IN THE MORNING.

Did you ever have this moment when you try to sleep at night but you just can’t get away from being over-thinking? And you started to cry and hoping that someone will be there, hugging you and say “Everything is going to be alright”. My night is always the same. When I try to get a sleep, I’ll start staring at the ceiling and started thinking. You won’t like it if I start to think. I hate it when I start to think. But my mind will always keep moving until I really fall asleep or fainted maybe.  And tonight, I can’t sleep again and I started to think and wall-dreaming for awhile. So, I decided to blog. It’s raining heavily here at my place tonight. So does my eyes. I’ve wet my little purple and Wanda. I’ve always hated and scared of late night heavy rain, with all the thunder and lightning. And tonight just make my night became worse. Yeah, worse.  I do hope for someone to actually lie next to me and hug me. “Go to sleep, everything will get better when you open your eyes the next morning. Don’t be afraid to close your eyes. I’ll give you the sweetest dream and delete the nightmare”. These simple words from that someone can just make me feel better. Tonight is the worse cause I blog. If it isn’t hurting me, I won’t blog at 2:32 a.m. in the morning, I never did.  I’m torturing myself every night thinking about someone that doesn’t even bother to think about me. It hurts. I’ve made through last night without crying and I'm gonna make through tonight either. But tears just won’t stop. Hear my thoughts through my tears and you’ll know how much it hurts. 

The  End.

CLOSING DOWN

Hai, this is my Spiderman, Mohamad Aiman Adam :) 

When the world is being mean to me, Allah sent me him to brighten my day.

*phs while studying*

This blog is going to be closed down for a week, from 1st of Oct - 7th of Oct due to my first semester final exam. See you guys soon :D

Love, 

Nurul Hidayah.

DEAR JOHN

Dear John,

I don't know why, but I've watch this movie plenty of time. I am so attached with this movie. For me, it might not be that romantic as 'Titanic' and 'P.S. I Love You', but it's a movie that really amuse me with its story line. I never thought how the writer could come out with such a beautiful story like this, about the sacrifice of two people who are madly in love even though they've known each other just for 2 weeks. In love with a soldier, Savannah still keep herself to be strong when he's not around for a war. I never thought that there's a woman like that who still can wait for a guy that does not guarantee her that he's coming back. Each time when they've to be apart, the last word that will be said are "I'll see you soon, John" "See you soon". Well, I don't really know why do I feel so attached with this story, am I going to experience the same thing as Savannah and John? Haha, I don't know about that. Allah has written all of my life story and I'm going to let the time do it's job. I dreamed of to be a writer, and I hope I can write as beautiful as Nicholas Sparks did. I hope so. Memorable quotes from the movie; I wish I could write it all~

“Our story has three parts: a beginning, a middle, and an end. And although this is the way all stories unfold, I still can't believe that ours didn't go on forever.”

“I love you, not just for now, but for always, and I dream of the day that you’ll take me in your arms again.”

“I fell in love with her when we were together, then fell deeper in love with her in the years we were apart.” 

“I'm going to marry you one day, you know." "Is that a promise?" "If you want it to be.” 

“I love you, Savannah, and I always will," I breathed. "You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. You were my best friend and my lover, and I dont regret a single moment of it. You made me feel alive again, and most of all, you gave me my father. I'll never forget you for that. You're always going to be the very best part of me. I'm sorry it has to be this way, but I have to leave, and you have to see your husband." As I spoke, I could feel her shaking with sobs, and I continued to hold her for a long time afterward. When we finally seperated, I knew that it would be the last time I ever held her. I backed away, my eyes holding Savannah's. "I love you, too, John," she said. "Good-bye." I raised a hand.”

“No matter where it is in the sky... No matter where you are in the world... the moon is never bigger than your thumb. -John” 

*oh how I wish Aiman could understand this story.*

Love,

Nurul Hidayah.