Did you ever have this moment when you try to sleep at night
but you just can’t get away from being over-thinking? And you started to cry
and hoping that someone will be there, hugging you and say “Everything is going
to be alright”. My night is always the same. When I try to get a sleep, I’ll
start staring at the ceiling and started thinking. You won’t like it if I start
to think. I hate it when I start to think. But my mind will always keep moving
until I really fall asleep or fainted maybe.
And tonight, I can’t sleep again and I started to think and
wall-dreaming for awhile. So, I decided to blog. It’s raining heavily here at
my place tonight. So does my eyes. I’ve wet my little purple and Wanda. I’ve
always hated and scared of late night heavy rain, with all the thunder and
lightning. And tonight just make my night became worse. Yeah, worse. I do hope for someone to actually lie next to
me and hug me. “Go to sleep, everything will get better when you open your eyes
the next morning. Don’t be afraid to close your eyes. I’ll give you the sweetest
dream and delete the nightmare”. These simple words from that someone can just
make me feel better. Tonight is the worse cause I blog. If it isn’t hurting me,
I won’t blog at 2:32 a.m. in the morning, I never did. I’m torturing myself every night thinking
about someone that doesn’t even bother to think about me. It hurts. I’ve made
through last night without crying and I'm gonna make through tonight either. But
tears just won’t stop. Hear my thoughts through my tears and you’ll know how
much it hurts.
The End.