Choices

Choices in life, there are so many of them. People choose their own choices. Why do you have to choose for them? When someone didn't choose the choices you want them to choose, you start to talk shit and start hating and make them feel little. Does that feels good to you? Make people feel small is pleasure to you? I don't know about you but it is not for me. Let people make their own choices. You've got to respect other choices or else people won't respect you. You think you're so perfect that all the choices you make is right and nothing goes wrong. If you think it that way, you've already making a mistake without you even realize about it. All choices came with many types of consequences and once they've made it, they'll face all the consequences they might get. You're not the one who's going to face it for them, so get a life. Stop talking and stop hating. You make your own choice. You're the one who makes people hate you. People didn't do anything to you. You harm yourself. You should know that. There are reasons why some people don't think the choices you've mad is right for them because they have their own standing. They choose their life. Talking shit abt them wont do anything for you. It'll makes people hate you more. When it comes to people's life choices, don't interfere. Let them be, unless they ask for you. Think.

p/s: this post doesn't meant to anyone. It's just an observation and friend's experiences. Don't get me wrong.

Make your own choices,

IT'S THE MATTER OF LIFE

Writing while imagining I'm sitting at the edge of it.

What should I right now? I got thousands of words to be written and I don;t even know how to express it. It's so hard since everything you post or say now will be judge. Yes it will, no matter from whom. Even if this is like an online diary for me,it's hard to spill everything out. People will be nonstop judging and I will be over-thinking about that. Abut what the horrible thing people will say. Life matter really does get harder when we gets older. As for now, I've lived in this world for almost 19 years and I've faced through a lot of things. Love is just one of the thing I faced. And now, I have to worry about lots of thing. Contrast to my childhood, the only thing I have to worry about is what will I have to say to mom if I dirt my clothes. As easy as that. Growing older is really not a simple thing, it's challenging. Sure it does. Amsyar once said to me, it's about love "You know what babe, at the age of people like us, 18/19, love really doesn't matter. You don't have to break your heart every time you fell in love. It doesn't even a thing that you should think and keep inside your head. When the time comes, true love will find you, itself. You just have to live your life. You're a woman, a cheerful lady as I know you before. Be that girl again, cut out all of the crying and remember to smile and laugh. It will make you feel better. Sure it will. Don't over-think as it will only make you miserable" Mom once said "Life will not be easy to you. But it doesn't mean that life is going to be hard. You'll be okay if you know how to live your life perfectly as you wanted to because when life gets harder, remember, it just want to teach you how to be stronger."And I think back, he actually got the point there. Why should I cry every night over the same thing and all the matter that bother me and the haters when I can easily smile and laugh with my life and be happy. I shouldn't have thought too much about it. As now, I just have to live my life and be happy. Sayang, if one day you'll be reading this post. I really hope you won't misunderstood. I do love you, always. It's not that I hate you or something. I'm just trying to cheer myself up. This girl is on fire now, let her live. Be stronger.

The End.

ALHAMDULILLAH

Alhamdulillah.

For everything that Allah gave me. Well, it may not as good as I hope for. But it's okay. It wasn't that bad anyway. I still have the chances for my future. In shaa Allah, Allah has create the best future for me. I don't really know what to say. I am a little bit disappointed about it but that doesn't mean I have failed. I'm actually proud of myself, I've done the best for it. I still have a long way to go. And maybe there's a beautiful forest behind the mountains. Who knows. I just have to keep walking and travel. I may failed so many times in this life, but success is there. Right there in future waiting for me to achieve it. 

The End. 

ALIEN'S WORLD.

I have never feel like I'm an alien before. But this time, I think I am. I didn't really feel like I'm in my own class and my own life. It's like, someone out there is now the one that takes control and plans everything for my life. I don't even get the chance to make my own decision. And I hate it. I'm 18 tho. None of 18 y/o teenagers like to be treat this way. yeah, but that's not the point actually. Being in semester 2 in Asasi TESL program is a good thing for me. And I am so glad that I am still in this course as I really wanted to. But in semester 2, everything has changed. Even the class. And the worse part is, I got to be in the same class with certain of people I don't want to be with. The best part is that I am still in the same class with my froggy and my boyfriend. But its kinda awkward being in the same class with your loved one, I men girlfriend/boyfriend. It is awkward. But as he said, "you should try to adapt the 'lantak lah' attitude in your life and you'll be fine". And I do actually take that advice. Wow me! Haha. But I kinda stressed out being in this new class. New people, new friends all over again. But, this time, I already knew the people and I don't really have the interest in get to know them deeper. Yknow what I mean. Huh~ What a life. This time, I really have to be a survivor. I really do. I hope I can make it through all this semester and this 5 months with pleasure. I don't really know what to tell in this post actually cause I've lost so many words to describe this semester. Like Froggy l asked me, "One word for this new class?" and I answered "Boring". It is. Frankly speaking, it is. Nothing interesting tho. Oh my, I really have to end this post or I'll start to get stressed out and so mentally breakdown. Dear myself, be yourself, practice the 'lantak lah' attitude and stay awesome pleaseeeee. Hahaha. 

P/S: Thanks to Yana, Mek, Ica and Qistina for making me feel better tonight. We'll do that again some other days okay. XO, 

The End.