IT WILL BE PAID OFF.

Let it go-

Let it go-

Can't hold it back anymore.

 

Let it go-

Let it go-

That perfect girl is gone.

Yes, I am not kindly attached to this song. "Let It Go" in Frozen movie. The words are somehow kinda connected to me.

 

Let just be honest, somehow in one time, each of us need to be someone else. Do you get me? It's like there are times and places where you can't just be yourself, and you need to put a mask on and act with the flow in that environment. Like when you're trying to make new friends, when you're meeting your boyfriend's family, when you're in a new places. It would be a lie if you say you didn't do that. Cause most of us did it. And it is kinda hard when you have to be somebody else when all you wanted to be is just yourself aite? No matter how hard you try, not everyone can accept you the way you are. There are always people who will judge you, shot a word bullet at you but all you have to do is just, "IGNORE". Don't take it personally. Think of them like some kind of motivation for you to fix yourself to be a better you or maybe they're just jealous because you are way better than them.

 

I, myself have a time where I have to put a mask on and start being an actress in my own life. Even by acting, I can't please everyone's heart. Nobody could. But I always keep this in my mind. "Its ok Nurul. Your patience now, will be paid off soon. Calm your heart." But still, not everyone can agree with my kind of motivation. You can always create something to make you feel better if you just have to act in any situation. Even though I am just 20, I've been through a lot in this 20 years of my life and I've learned. And now, I'm married and taking one step further ahead in a teenager's life and somehow it became more challenging than before. Not to mention, you have to deal with yourself, your family, your husband, your in laws. I'm not trying to say that I regret for getting married at this age, I am not. In fact, I am glad. Cause I got to learn to deal with life at a very young age so that happiness can be mine soon. At the very least, by the time I've become old, I am prepared to face anything in life. InsyaAllah.

 

Just keep your heart and strength together and pray that someday Allah will make everything better and I am 5000% sure that Allah will.

 

 

 

Fin.

 

JUST STOP.

One incident can change one's whole life. Yes, it is. And in my case, one incident, changes my whole perception. These days, we (women), tend to feel like we're the vulnerable one, the one who keeps on hurting in any kind of matter, the one that will always be the losing player in a game, the one that will never be happy, the one that always am the victim. But here's what we're wrong about it. Men, they do have feelings too. They are. The only difference between us and them is that we tend to show our feelings and emotions, but they're using their ego to hide it. Whenever they feel sad, they hide their tears with ego. Man and their ego, can't be separated just like us, women can't be separated by emotions and feelings. 

I've seen my dad at his worst. 

I've seen my man at his worst. 

Tears running down from their eyes, their precious tears,

in front of me, and I died in that moment. 

I felt like I'm the chosen one. Why? Because I can actually look at them in the eyes when they're crying. And a hug was given by me, Trying to make everything better. But I just can't. The warm of the hug is not enough to solve everything. But it sure can comfort us in that moment. Men feel hurt. They can be so vulnerable at one time either. And it is not our right to judge them by saying, "All men are the same." Yes, "Men will always be men." But what if the men said the same thing to us? "All women are the same." Will we like it? To be compared to other girls? I don't. Absolutely not. Cause I have my own specialty. I'm different. That's how they felt about it too. So, enough with all the men hurt women thingy, men doesn't have feelings and whatsoever. 

Because it is so not true. I've seen two of my favorite man at their worst and I know how does it feels like to see a man got weak and get rid of their ego for just a moment. All of our tears are precious. Even if we're women or men, Both are the same. So, appreciate each other. That's what we should do from now on. 

Mawar. 

KAU PENCURI CAHAYA BULAN

P/S: Credits to #seratusmulut. Puisi yang aku buat untuk Seratus Mulut.

KAU PENCURI CAHAYA BULAN

Dulu aku lihat bulan itu terang,

Namun semakin kau menjauh,

Semakin malap cahayanya--

Mungkin kau pergi membawa cahaya itu bersama,

Kerana sewaktu kau melangkah pergi,

Aku hilang cahaya di kala malamku.

Namun,

Masih aku perhati bulan itu,

Tanpa aku mengerlipkan mataku,

Walau cahayanya semakin pudar.

Kerana bulan itu satu kepastian,

Kepastian buat aku untuk tahu kau masih lagi tersenyum melihat bulan yang sama,

Mungkin bukan aku yang berada di dalam ingatan kau saat itu,

Aku tak kisah---

Wahai sang bulan,

Pergilah kau, pergi bersama dia,

Berikan dia cahaya yang paling terang,

Cahaya yang dapat sentiasa menyinari senyuman manis itu,

Agar setiap kali aku lihat bulan,

Aku dapat lihat wajah dan senyum itu walau dia jauh dan bukan milik aku lagi.

Amatur,

Mawar

KEKHILAFAN MANUSIA

  P/S: Credits to #seratusmulut. Puisi yang aku buat untuk Seratus Mulut.

KEKHILAFAN MANUSIA

Manusia--

Di saat bersedih

Mereka akan pertikaikan di mana Allah pada saat itu

Meninggalkan mereka sendirian terkapai

Dalam dugaaan.

Sedar atau tidak

Allah itu sentiasa ada.

Dugaan yang diberikan

Hanya untuk buat kita lebih ingat dan dekat padaNya.

Janganlah terus berduka

Berdoalah pada Allah,

InsyaAllah, Dia akan membantu hambaNya.

Allah tidak pernah meninggalkan kita sendirian,

Ingatlah----

Allah menulis segalanya,

Suka duka kita,

Allah berikan semua.

Hati itu, jadikan ia milik Allah,

Kerana itu adalah hakikatnya.

La Tahzan!

Amatur,

Mawar.

THE GIRL.

Once upon a time, (you'll be expecting happy ending now aite?)

There was a girl. An ordinary girl who lives her life with just by herself and friends. She always laugh so hard that can make anyone laugh along. He smile always shine that could irritate all her haters. And she always have this kind of attitude that make people would stand by her all the time. But then, came 2 men in her life. And everything is changing. She doesn't laugh like she used to before. Well, she did, with only one of the guy. Her smile, is fading away. But it always shine to that one guy. She still has the attitude that could make people got attached to her. That is why, she was in miserable now. She's in dilemma. She has to choose. 

Before, she doesn't has to choose anyone to stand by her side. Love came into her life. And she knows she can't have both of the guy with her. But, the stubborn side of her, keep telling her : "Keep both of them. Don't hurt people." And it keeps coming into her mind every night before she could go to sleep. She over-think everything. So, she decided to use her smartness and starts scribbling the pros and cons between the two guy. And it came out so wrong because she founds out that both of them love her, but still they weren't being honest to her. She cried in her sleep, and it gave her nightmares. Hoping that when she woke up, everything will just go away and she'll be starting her life again like normal. 

But it didn't happened. As time goes by, she became that one girl who always disappear when it comes to socializing. That one girl who always keep quiet when something bad happen to her. That one girl who always shuts down everyone who tries to help her. That one girl who always laugh for her friends, but crying in her heart. It hurts her so bad that she could not stand it anymore. Every night is the same night for her. She hates thinking. But that is what he does every time now. And it kills her slowly everyday. "Why must I choose? Why must they come into my life?" She kept on asking herself. Until now, she became emotion-less. And she gave up. This is not what she wanted in her life. 

She realized that she's hurting herself. "Men are just men," she thought. They'll find a prettier girl, and they'll start chasing that girl and leaves her alone. This is just the routine in love. They come and go. So, she stopped thinking and start living. Cause she knows, "if the guy loves her, no matter what, he'll stay and be happy for what makes her happy."

And she doesn't live happily ever after. Because there's no prince charming and stuff. But she is really sure that on one fine day, she'll find the happy ending.

The End.

The girl.

FRANKLY SPEAKING,

 Frankly speaking, 

Love stories generally build up to a romantic climax and then end, leaving us with the impression that the couple lived happily ever after. Sadly, the reality is rarely as rosy as this.In the first flush of love nothing much matters beyond being together - no sacrifice is too great if it helps you spend more time with the person whose mere presence intoxicates you. But when the intoxication starts to wear off, as it does unfortunately, little misunderstandings start to occur, causing friction, irritation, long cold silences or angry rows and the rosy image of love can give way to a deep sense of disillusion.

Why is there this friction between men and women?

The root cause of the problem, apparently, is that men and women don't understand just how different they are emotionally. Men and women respond to problems in very different ways and consequently have very different emotional needs. When people insist on their own needs and fail to properly appreciate the needs of their partners there is bound to be friction.

Women, typically, deal with problems and stresses by talking about how they feel. A woman may easily feel overwhelmed and by talking she will find relief and feel less upset. There is no need necessarily to deal with the practicalities of the problem - they are of secondary significance. What really matters is expressing herself, exploring her emotions and getting the support from a loving relationship in which she feels that she is understood.

Whereas women want to talk and talk about their problems, men withdraw into the caves of their mind to focus on solving the problem. A man's self-esteem is built on a sense of how competent he is, so he feels he must develop the skills to solve his problems on his own. Asking for help or idly expressing how terrible you feel is perceived as an admission of weakness and incompetence. Rather than looking for understanding, men want their partners to admire them for the way they achieve their goals.

The more busy life becomes, the greater this friction will be. As the problems men face seem greater and more intractable, the more they need to escape and the less they are able to patiently sit and lovingly listen to their partner's frustrations. The more demanding a woman's life becomes, the greater her emotional turmoil is and the more she has to express. If her partner is glued to the TV or out skydiving all the time, they will grow further and further apart.

With a little, men and women can understand each other better and learn to respect their differences. He thinks that women can start to respect that men need to withdraw to cope with stress and they can realise that this doesn't mean that they no longer love them. And he is convinced that men can find that listening to their partner talk about her problems could actually help them come out of their caves in the same way as watching TV or skydiving. Apparently, men need to be needed. By learning to listen without giving solutions they can see how much of a positive difference they can make in their partner's life and thus appreciate how important they are. So the key to keeping the flames of love alight would seem to be less telly and more listening.

p/s: frankly speaking, this is true. Most of these theories came from John Gray's book. Read his books, he's good :)

Love, Nurul Hidayah♛

FAKE IS NOT ME

P/S: I love books, I may look like nerd but nerd is cool.

I act different around certain people.It’s not because I’m fake. It’s because I have a different comfort zone around certain people. I’ll act loud, stupid, be mean to you, act crazy, and do the most stupidest things with you because I’m comfortable around you. But, I can be quiet and shy if I don’t know you that well or we aren’t very close. Just because I act different around certain people, doesn’t mean I’m fake. I just have a different comfort zone with certain people.

Love, Nurul Hidayah♛

IT'S ALL ABOUT THE FRIENDSHIP

Assalammualaikum,
Dear Readers♥

Friendship is a feeling of love and affection of one person for another. This feeling of love must be reciprocated. Otherwise friendship cannot be possible. Friendship does not exist where tastes, feelings and sentiments are not similar. It is said that a friend in need is a friend in deed. There may be many friends at the time of prosperity. But most of them desert at the time of adversity. We can examine the sincerity of a friend during our time of hardship and trouble. Only a sincere and faithful friend remains with us at the time of our trouble. All others leave us. It is very painful when our friends turn traitors. Sometimes I wonder God has given us so many relations to cherish where each one of it having its own importance in our life. Friendship is the only relation out of all which is apart from caste, class, blood or status. It just needs to check the love in the heart of the other person to be friends with. So why do we need friends? What is the importance of friendship in our life? After wondering a lot, I got my answer.

Whenever I am upset, they are the first one who notices that sadness in my eyes, no matter how hard I try to hide it behind my smile. Whenever I am stuck in a problem and have no solution, no matter how serious the issue may be, they are the one who provides me the best possible way out of it. Whenever I need a company they are the one who come to me and make me laugh leaving behind other things. Even if it is about convincing parents for a night out or going to a friend’s birthday party at discotheque, friends are best in their job. They are the people with whom everything can be discussed without a pre-thought that it is personal. Whenever you look back in your life, you’ll realize they are the one with whom you have shared the best and the worst. With so much dire need of friends in our life how can we think of existing without them? Though we have many people around us, but there are only close friends who make all the difference. If they are present nothing else matter. Friendship is that innocent feeling as of a small child whose love is unconditional, uncommitted and yet so pure. Friends are a family outside home where the responsibility of each person is shared equally by everyone else. Like a family, they guide you to a right path and never let you divert from your target. They are good to be relied on and there is a sense of security whenever you are with them.

Friendship is like an investment, the more you invest the more you reap. An investment is in terms of trust and faith which is the root of any strong relation. No matter how much you spend together on your vodkas or how many night outs you have enjoyed together, if there is no seed of trust and faith in the soil the tree of friendship cannot stand long. Life with friends becomes an easy going journey that you would never like to get over with. Each day spent with them is to be cherished in a different way even if some days bring lot of misunderstandings or fights. But whatever it is, friendship is an old book, while turning its pages you go through a lot of mixed feelings realizing that even after sharing the best and the worst you are still together.

credit to  ; Shilpa Gupta 

Love, Nurul Hidayah♛