100 pemuisi #seratusmulut

Its a once in a lifetime opportunity. And I still cant make a decision. 
Should I join it? Or shouldn't I? 
I'm an amateur. I'm not a pro in literature. I write, but only on blogs. But I always wanted to write a book. And published my book. And this is like a step forward in achieving my dream. If my poem got selected and be one of the 100 people that they selected, it will be published in a book called 'Seratus Mulut'. Who wouldn't want it? But I don't think I'm good enough to enter this cause I don't know. I'm lack of confidence I guess. 
Should I or shouldn't I? Ugh, I hate making decision. But it's a chance that I will never know if I could get it again in the future. 

But then again, if there's anyone who's interested in this, do join it. And visit seratusmulut.tumblr.com for more inquiry :)
Let us all support the Malaysian writers!

P/S: Sorry for being lost from this blog about 3 months. Been busy with all the study thingy. 

A writer in the making, in dreams.

#HowIMetMyBestfriend

Another trend from Twitter that really reminds me of the memories. And this one really touches my heart. How I met my bestfriend? It's kinda ironic actually. The story begins when I first move to a new school. Before, at her eyes, I'm just a girl from KL ('kay ellll' poyo sikit enn) that come to Ipoh looking proud with myself cause I'm the 'princess-in-bracket' at that time. Lulz. For short, we started out our 'so-called-relationship' with becoming enemies. Haha. Kinda funny to recall back.We started out as enemies and somehow that hatred turned us into something special as bestfriend. Irony isn't it? Yeah ofc, before we became bff, we even said that we'll never ever ever ever be friends and now? Hehe. Thisis what I've learned in hating someone. When you hate someone, sooner or later, that person will be someone so close to you like she is to me now. We're not just friends, we're more like twins. I can't live without her and she can't live without me. We need each other and we complete each other. She's like a sister and tbh, she's my other half.  As long as she's with me, I don't need a man to cheer me up. I have her. We could be lesbiooonnnn. Lol~ Kidding. Don't take it so serious. Just a joke. Puh-leaseeeeee! I still have the feeling towards guys tho.I gotta a boyfriend, Aiman Adam, sorry baby, just a joke. Haha. Bestfriend is not just someone who will be by your side when you need them, give you the love you need or attention. Bestfriend is more like your other half. You'll stay together in any ways that happen. You won't leave each other and you don't even talk about each other at the back. Bestfriend is family. Yes it is. To me, she's my family. I love her as I love my family. It has been 1 year and 2 months since the accident and she's still the way she is. And I won't lose hope on her cause I know, she'll be okay. She'll remember, she'll be herself again. I always have that hope in me cause I love her. I want the best for her. Whatever I do now, I do it for her too. Cause she's a twin, and I'll never leave her behind. 

Dear Nur Zahirah, I won't lose hope on you, we'll go through this together twinnies. I love you always. Never will forget you. There's always hope and miracles. I'll keep praying for you. 

Love, a bestfriend, more like your other half.

18 IS MY AGE.

20th November - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! :D

I had such a great birthday yesterday. What else can I say and ask for? Most of the wishes on my wish list are already granted. Haha Alhamdulillah. Thank you to Allah for still giving me the chance to live for 18 year. I'm grateful to that. I really am. And thanks to mom for hvng me into this world, carrying me in her belly for 9 months. Thanks to my dad for taking a good care of me until I've become 18 which means I'm already an adult. Hehe. & I should act like one. No more immature decision and playfulness. But, I still trying to get rid of that from myself. Seriously. Haha All I wish for this year is that I can be a better person to my parents, my sisters and to my Creator, Allah. I'm really happy for my birthday. But the sad things is, my girlfriends are not here with me. Hmp. Lilo is still in her 'conditions' and B is at KL, not coming back to Ipoh. I just want them to be with me like all the years before. I've never missed a year celebrating my birthday with them. But since we all get our own life now, everything changed. But I'm glad they still remember my birthday. And I can't wait to meet them a.s.a.p. And thanks to sayang too, for willing to be on the phone with me for just about 1 hour actually. Haha I miss talking to you. Thanks to Hotlink for the free calls. Well Alhamdulillah, now that I'm 18, everything I do, it's based on my own decision. So I should be a woman now, not a girl anymore. Not forgetting, for those who wished my birthday, thanks a lot! Really appreciated that. 

This is what I got for my birthday ;

A birthday card from dad. I love you dad!

A gift from sayang. Hehe. These two teddies are so cute. I named them Aiman & Nurul for us. Let him be the chef and I'm the cake holder. I love you :*

A birthday wish from Qi Razali. What else can I asked for? Haha getting a wish from him is on the top of my wish list. I'm so glad for it. Thanks Qi Razali.

And finally, Birthday Dinner at Nando's with my family. Mom treated us. Thanks mom. You know that I love Nando's. Hehe.

Thanks for today Ya Allah. 

Love,

Nurul Hidayah.

#PrimarySchoolMemories

#PrimarySchoolMemories got trend on the Twitter last night. It reminds me a lot of my primaries memories. 

I caught myself smile and laugh a little when I tweet about that. Lots of memories on primaries suddenly came out of my mind. I remember every little things that happen in primaries. I miss that moment so much. I still remember how I always have a sleepover at Arisyah's house almost like every week, chasing each other at school with Sara D, Firdaus and Zainul, danced on the High School Musical with Damia, Fara and Abidah, acting a hilarious drama in the class with Arshad, gossiping with Sara A. Oh, there's a lot of thing going on at that time. I couldn't even forget it if I want to. I realized that was the most amazing moment I ever had in my life. How happy I am when I was just a kid. No love, no pain. Just fun and friends. I still remember how cute I am in primaries. Went to school with my 'GIRLS' backpack, ponytails hair, and have this 'special' hand shake whenever I met my friends at school. I never thought how happy I am back then. If I have the chance to turn back the time, I'll go back to my primaries and live that moment for awhile. But I can't. Time will never turn back, it will keep moving on. So do I. So, let the memories stay here in my heart and in my mind so that whenever I feel depressed, frustrated, sad, angry and etc, I will look back at the memories and laugh my ass off in the room alone. If I have the chance to meet everyone in my primaries soon, I think we're gonna do some stupid things like we used to in our primaries. Haha. They are the true friends actually. No drama, no hatred, just fun and friendship. That is what my primaries are all about. 

Love,

Nurul Hidayah.