"I typed my life because I don't want to forget each moment. I'm Nurul Hidayah, 20. Muslimah. Malaysian
They don't even know that somehow words can be more hurt than bullets."

Thursday, March 22, 2012



The day that I've been waiting for all this while after graduate from highschool had gone. The day when everything will be determine. The day when my future is being determined. 21st of March 2012 had gone. I already got my SPM Result and Alhamdulillah, I am really grateful for this A's that I got. I didnt got straight A's for my SPM but still I am proud of myself. I've tried hard enough and did my best in the SPM earlier and this is what I got. These A's present how much effort do I really put in the SPM. But at first, I didnt thought that I'll get this kind of result cause I really am lack of confident.I thought Im going to failed 2 papers and no A's for me. Maybe one. But Alhamdulillah, Allah still loves me and listen to my prayers. Instead of one, he gave me 4A's and I pass all the papers. 

On the 21st of March morning, I woke up with a dozen of butterflies in stomach. I kept talking too much cause thats what I do when Im nervous. I feel like I dont wanna go to school and take the result cause I might hurt my mom for not getting the best result. I went to school with mom with the butterflies in my stomach. And every steps that I take to enter the school hall, my heart kept beating faster and faster. Like its trying to get out from my chest but I dont want to let it happen. Something like that. Really. As I stand in front of the school hall, I already saw my class teacher was sitting there, looking at me w her grumpy face. Hehe. *sorry teacher* So I went to the table where she sits with my junior, Mira. She accompanied me all the time yesterday. And Cikgu Rozi gave me the slip, I opened it and I saw an A. Haha, never expected really. And mom quickly came to me and ask, "Dpt berapa honey?" And I just smiled. I dont even know how to tell mom. 

And I show 4 fingers to mom, she hugged me. I kinda surprised about that. Cause I thought I've failed and broke mom's heart. Instead of that, mom said "I am so proud of you. You really make my day today. You might not get straight A's but Im still proud of you" And I was like....OMD! Mom wasnt mad, yeay ! yeay ! I am so happy that I make mom proud. This is for you mom. If its not because of you, I wont be what I am now. Thanks to you. You raised me up with a lot of love and I repay you for this success. I might not get straight A's but to hear mom said that she's proud of me is enough for me. Cause that is all what I wanna do in life. Make mom's proud. Alhamdulillah, I did it. Now, all I need to do is just pray to Allah hoping that I'll get to further my studies in TESL. It has always be my dream and mom's too. InsyaAllah, I'll make mom proud for the second time. InsyaAllah. 

Love, Nurul  Hidayah