"I typed my life because I don't want to forget each moment. I'm Nurul Hidayah, 20. Muslimah. Malaysian
They don't even know that somehow words can be more hurt than bullets."

Monday, January 9, 2012



Dear readers, I dont even know what am I going to say now. There's been a lot of things happen to me these days. I hurt people. Yess, I do. I am not that nice as you see. Im cruel and evil. Even more evil than the witch in Snow White, Cinderella's step mom and Mojo Jojo in Powerpuff Girl. Yess, I am that cruel. I hurt the one and only man who loved me with his heart, a friend who inspires me alot with his advices and people that I barely know act. I am so sorry for what happened before guys. I followed my ego to much and now I guess Karma's hits me back. Just like the lyrics in Nobody's Perfect by Jessie J. I try to not act like a jerk but I am one. I try to be nice, but nice wasnt the word for me. I try everything I could but maybe I was born to hurt people. And now, I regret it. I lost everything. But not quite everything. Im lucky to have a man like Nazmi, who always stands up for me. Never give up on me. And always try to lifted me up. I am lucky and I dont realise it before. And now, everything become worst. I used to have a friend, who never gives up from giving me advices. Always help me throughout my problems, and never let me fall. A friend who always there to say "Allah is there, everything is going to be ok. Just remember He's with you" But now, I hurt him. Like putting knives on his heart. I know how it hurts him alot. And now, he is giving up on me. And that hurts me. I know, I've done too many wrongs to people who's there for me, who loves me, who's care about me. Now, I am losing everything. All I have to do now is just beg for their forgiveness and I hope they'll forgive me for what I've done. And pray for Allah that they will. Amin. For those who'll be reading this, Im sorry. 

Here, this is a song that I repeated all over again. For you guys.

-A Writer To Be-