Adam Shariffudin bin Roslan :'(

Adam , its been almost three years we've been friends . but now , i've lost you . im so sorry for what i've done to you . i didnt mean to hurt you  , but i just did . and i know that you cant forgive me . im sorry for my bad behaviour since we've known each other . i know , i've done a lot of mistakes to you , you always forgive me . you've been so nice to me . im lucky to have a friend like you . but i just wasted you now . em , i didnt mean to chose them over you . but they're my friends to . friends that help me a lot ! they're not to bad like you've describe . any bad people , do have a nice thing on them . you say it to me . but , you never trust the same thing that you said to me . you 'll always thought that they're bad people . you've set your mind just like that . and there's nothing i could change . huh , you asked me to chose you or them . but i dont wanna chose chose anyone . both of you are my friends . my bestie's . dont you get it ? you always asked me to follow your orders and blah , blah blah . but that  doesnt mean that you can control my life ! i know that you wanted to take care of me . i know that you love me . i know that you do all this to protect me . but , sometimes you're just to over protective . i do cared about you . but you the one who left me alone now ! just remember , it's you . not me ! i've done anything for you , but you just cant stop me from seeing my friend . you wanna hate me ? go ahead . but i'll never hate you cause i love you no matter how . i need you to come back , but it's all depends on you . im just wishing and praying that you'll always be here for me :( imy AD <3